Mixed emotions

Heya Blogland, 

Well this morning I had the delight of waking up to the news that My friend Anne had her Call for her heart and lungs last night. How amazing is that?! She had been waiting since October and I know she had been having a rough time as of late as she had just been put on Flolan as well and she was just in and out of hospital a lot, so I definitely think it came at the right time for her. The last we heard the surgeons said it went well and seem really pleased and her Brother will be updating us all as and when he can.

It's one of those moments where I'm really overjoyed that my friend has got their call and I really couldn't be happier for her because everyone on the list needs their organs, but at the same time I'm a little deflated because I'm always wondering "when will it be my turn?" Although to be honest I have a few friends that have been waiting a lot longer and I would prefer they got their calls before me because that would make me feel really guilty if I got my call before some who has been waiting a lot longer than me. Stupid logic really but unfortunately my emotions are a tad unpredictable LOL.

The problem is being Blood type O it just means I'm going to have to be patient and wait it could potentially be years, the question is will I last long enough? I know people who are blood group O and really, really need them organs at least I'm still plodding along some people aren't and there're just isn't enough people signed up or talking to their families. O is the commonest blood group therefore essentially it should be  the one with the most organs available. That just isn't the case though. I think it's probably has something to do with people maybe being complacent about it like they'll think, "Oh I'm a common blood type I'm sure there's already loads of people donating" or "I'm sure my family will donate if anything happened to me" without actually physically talking to their families.  

Theres part of me that gets all that, why would you even think about it if you didn't have to? But I just wish we lived in a world where it wasn't even a question. My point is I suppose if you ask anyone on the street if they were in the position where they needed a organ would they take one? Almost everybody would say yes. You'd get a few who would probably say no but I wouldn't believe that until they were actually in that position. It's easy to say no when you aren't actually dying. But surely if almost everyone would say yes if they needed a organ why is it that only around 31% donate? It's actually mind boggling to me. 

So today when I get some wonderful news, it's a day of mixed emotions where many different thoughts run through my mind most of which question the morality of us human beings and why we watch people die and wither away when there's actually a lot that we could do to stop it. I suppose the same could be said about hunger and all that stuff but maybe thats a little too deep to go into. 

If you haven't, it would mean the absolute world to me if you would sign up to the donor register and if you do tell your family too JOIN THE DONOR REGISTER

Talk soon guys  


  1. Hi Stacie,

    I'm happy for your friend Anne, I hope all goes well for her, and she recovers quickly. I have such high hopes that your call will come soon. You are so patient, and when you least expect it, you better answer that call :)

    As for me, I can tell you that I am proud to be on the donor register. I hope to help someone live, after I am gone, it's the least I can do!
    I hope more people sign up with your urging.

    sending you love from California!


    1. Hi Lori!

      It'll probably happen on a some completley random day when I'm not even thinking about it. I just have to be patient is all LOL.

      Thats awesome I'm so chuffed that you're an organ donor that makes me so happy and proud :D

      stacie xoxo

  2. I am happy for you friend. I am sure you will get a call soon, and it will be amazing when it does. :D

    I have grabbed your blog button to hopefully get a few more people reading your blog and realising they should be on the donor register! I am! :) ha!

    Rachel x

    1. Hey Rachel!

      I'm sure when I get my call I'll be very scared but strangley excited too :D. That is sooo sweet of you Rachel and hopefully they'll all follow in your footsteps :]


  3. I am very glad your friend has finally managed to get one. Reading your blog puts things into perspective. I am an organ donor and I never had a moment of doubt about it! I'm sure you will get yours soon. Keep going!

    chloe xx

  4. Hey you!
    That's great about your friend and even though this time, it wasn't your turn, you're now another step up the list and you're heading in the right direction. You know that me and the whole of my family are behind you on the donor register point, and hopefully after reading this, more people will join themselves and get their family to follow suit!
    Keep strong, we're getting there!
    Me xxxx


  5. What an inspirational post. This really touched me!I'm on the organ donor list I see it as if i could help at least one person from me passing then it will be amazing.

    Carrieanne x


  6. This has just sparked me to have a conversation with my friend about how I want to man up and give blood. I have a huge phobia of needles but after reading everything you are going through it makes me think I should just get over myself and do it.

    Thank you for the inspiration.

    Louise xx

    1. Hi, just saw your comment and wanted to say, I've given blood a few times now and it's very simple and quick! You're lying down so you don't have to see the needles, I never look and it's a breeze. :) I encourage you to give it a go!

  7. When I applied for my drivers license, there was a part on the form where you said if you wanted to donate. I ticked everything except eyes.

    Then when I started donating blood I was asked again - and this was after I'd seen Katie Piper's the Science of Seeing (I think that's what it's called!) Because of that I ticked every box and now am the proud owner of a diner card :)

    I think there should be a lot more programmes on TV about the people who desperately need transplants. Putting actual faces on the donor system would make a huge difference.


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