A little lost and alone...

Hey Blogland,

So this is just a bit of an update on my situation really.

I’m now at the Hammersmith which is good in most ways as it now means I can have my new line put in as soon as my antibiotics have finished which should be Monday because they actually finish Friday/Saturday but nothing happens at hospitals on a weekend so Monday is as soon as they can do it.

I feel a bit lost here this time. There’s a part of me that kind of wished everything could have happened at the Great Western in Swindon because my family got to see me everyday even if it was only an hour here or there, there was enough of them around that they could do that and it meant my days didn’t seem so long. Now I’m here my family still have to work and they can’t just pop up to London when they’ve finished to come see me. Although my dad has tomorrow off so he’s going to come see me then and hopefully my Mum and Dad will see me on Saturday. It’s hard though because I really want to see them but I can’t expect them to travel all this way especially when it’s not cheap. At least when I was in Swindon it was literally a 10 minute drive from everyone’s houses.

Then there’s the fact that the nurses here are not very nice at all. Well I lie a few are okay but the majority don’t give anyone the time of day. I miss being able to have a laugh with the nurses at Swindon they were lovely and it made my day go faster there because I got to have a chat with them. Don’t get me wrong I get to see my PH team everyday and I love seeing them but it’s only for 30 minutes maximum. I don’t currently have anyone in the same bay as me on the ward, (although I’m sure that will change) the problem is if anyone does come on the ward they are either someone who can’t speak English so I can’t speak to them because I don’t speak their language or they are too old and mentally incapacitated so I couldn’t speak to them even if I wanted to. I never get a happy medium I’m not asking for a young person to speak to just someone I can speak to.

I’m so bored already and it’s only Thursday! I’m trying to take lots of naps during the day because it’s so humid at night still so my sleep is horribly broken up I don’t think I’ve had a good night sleep the entire time I’ve been in hospital. I do this because also I hope it breaks up the day a bit. Then any little task I have to do I try make it last twice as long. I suppose the good thing about having really slow internet at the moment is it makes anything I do on the computer last twice as long :).

It’s looking a bit cloudy at the moment here in London I really hope that means a thunderstorm or lots of rain :D

Hope you are all well in blogland    


1 Year old...

Hi Blogland,

So I'm officially back online with the slowest internet in the world but I feel a little less disconnected from the world. I've had my phone, my kindle, a tv and yet without my laptop and proper internet I still felt disconnected. Here we have my one year post which was meant to go up on the 18th as that was my 1 year anniversary for me and "Life is Worth The Fight" and I hope you enjoy it my 1 year giveaway will follow this post so please check it out and enter :) Enjoy...

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Hey My Wonderful Blogland,

So my Blog is one year old...

... I'm kind of sat her at my desk wondering what to write because in some ways it's been a mad year and in others it has been completely normal where do I start? I'm really not quite sure. 

I started this blog after transplant week last year after I had discovered other transplant blogs and thought I could start one not for people to read really but just somewhere for me to go when I had no-body to really turn to. To say I'm surprised what it lead to is an understatement. 

I never expected to even get beyond 2 followers because I literally forced my sisters to sign up and follow me because I didn't wanna be 'Billy no mates' as sad as that sounds, but I was okay with it because I just wanted a place to put down my thoughts and express myself if I needed to. Now I have nearly 400 of you and that is so BEYOND INSANE I can't even tell you. I know it's not like some other blogs who have this massive following but to me you are like my little blog family and I love you all. 

This time last year I didn't know if I would be here typing and talking to you because the previous few years my decline had been pretty rapid but luckily, although as strange as it may seem, being put on the transplant list opened new doors for me and allowed me access to more medication which has meant my decline has been slower and therefore I'm still here.    

I've made so many friends in the past year just from being put on the transplant list, it introduced me to this whole new world of amazing, inspiring, brave and just plain awesome people who although I may only get to meet a few of them in person, just by talking to them it has made my year on the list  a lot better and I'm certain that if I hadn't come across all these amazing people my year would have seemed far longer and would have been much tougher. 

I got to meet some of my Pulmonary hypertension friends who I was never sure I would actually get to meet and I can tell you that it really is amazing to come in contact with these people they are just astounding, wonderful people who enrich and better your life. 

I got to be part of amazing campaigns to help get more organ donors in the UK. Something I have always been passionate about and it gave me the opportunity to do something about it, and I will continue to try and raise awareness for as long as I live as it really is something everyone should be thinking about. 

Unfortunately being brought into the world of transplant also means you are exposed to a lot more than just the success stories, you can become friends with others like you who are on the list  and thats an amazing friendship to have but unfortunately 1 in 3 people waiting for organs dies and you are exposing yourself to that. In this year far too many people died and even more that I don't know about and that in itself makes what I write and talk about so important. Why I write about it, to try and stop that 1 from dying because for me that is  one too many. 

Annnd I got to experience a false alarm. Now I'm not going to lie when I say I wasn't pleased that it wasn't the real deal because I wasn't pleased it was stress and no sleep for no reason, but I can now look back on it as an experience and the next call will hopefully be the right one for me. 

Then there is the normal side of my life:- 
- I saw my nephew turn 2
- My twin sister and I became 22 year olds (fully grown adults in my eyes ;) or just plain old)
- I got to celebrate my mum and her twin sisters 51st birthday
- Christmas happened 
- My second nephew was born on what has to be the coolest day to have a birthday New Years Eve what a great excuse to party every year no matter what day of the week it happens to land on lol
- My twin sister got engaged to her boyfriend of 5 years
- My older sister became officially ancient at 24yrs old :P
- My dad got another year older
- I actually made it to my vampire diaries convention Yeyyy
- I got see my parents make their Silver wedding anniversary

I know how normal the above things are but they are all things that I appreciate and am thankful to have been able to see. 

Then there's the unbelievable fact that I got shortlisted for the Cosmo Blog Awards which I'm really not  even sure how it happened. I know it sounds stupid but I wasn't even thinking about trying out for them and then about a week before the nominations thing was about to close a old school friend Facebook messaged me and suggested I do it and I sort of thought okay well I may as well you know try and the fact that it actually happened is amazing. When I started my blog I didn't even think about stuff like that and the fact that you guys like reading about me, my life and the things I like really is wonderful and I truly love you all for it! 
Up there ^^^^ is one of my Instagram photos. I captioned it "Faith... that everything will always work out in the end" and I just wanted to share that with all of you because I'm not what you would call religious but I have and always will believe that everything, no matter how tough it is, will always work out in the end and I believe things happen for a reason even if it's not what you would ideally want, and it definitely deserved a space in my 1 year old post :)  

Right guys I'm sorry it's a little long winded this one but if you haven't seen already I'm also doing a 1 year blog giveaway as a massive thank-you to you guys and your amazingness so please head on over to that post and check it out . 

All the links are below for the giveaway to vote for me in the Cosmo Blog wards etc. etc.

1 Year Blog anniversary giveaway

Howdy Hey Blogland, 

So you've probably guessed it, this is my 1 year blog anniversary giveaway. 

Now I debated for like a month about what to put in this giveaway because I refused for it to be a little giveaway like my last one but I still am not rolling in money so it couldn't be amazingly extravagant either. So I asked on twitter what people would want and a friend of mine said "Travis", and for those that don't know he is one of the main characters in the books that I'm giving away. Now without actual magical powers and an inability to create fictional characters from thin air I realised that I could in fact gift one of my lovely readers with the chance to get absorbed into that particular fictional setting. 

So with that spark of inspiration I decided to do a giveaway based on a few of my favourite things. So firstly we have the two books by Jamie McGuire 'Beautiful Disaster' and 'Walking Disaster'. I'm very excited to give these away because if you get absorbed into books like I do and enjoy a good romance like I certainly do then I think you will love these. 

Next are my 4 favourite Barry M nail polishes. I thought that considering I have a bit of a nail polish addiction it would only be right to give away a few of my favourite ones  and I chose some summery colours as well because I'm really into them at the moment also. The colours we have are 'Papaya', 'Key Lime', 'Blueberry' and 'Mango'. All of these are are the Gel hi shine formula of Barry M which is my favourite out of all their current formulas as well. 

Finally we have my all time favourite eyeshadow palette. I have a lot of eyeshadow palettes and I always come back to my Stila palette it is my most used one and I really do love it more that anything else that I own. It is, for me, the perfect neutrals palette and think a great thing for me to giveaway because anyone who gets it will be able to use it. Don't worry about the swatches, I took them from my own palette and whoever wins will get a completely new untouched palette (just a fyi lol). 

Right so to enter there are only two compulsory elements and that is that you must be a follower of my blog just to the right with all those other lovely people. You just have to press join this site and become one of my followers and let me know what your name is or whatever it is that you join under.

Next you must leave a comment below telling me your email address/however you want to be contacted. Now please do not leave an email address that you hardly use because if you don't contact me within 48hours of me contacting you I will draw a new winner. 

There are also a few other ways you can gain extra entries like tweeting everyday, following me on twitter, following me on bloglovin, following me on instragram etc.

Also as an extra bonus this is an international giveaway so wherever you are in the world you can enter you don't have to just be in the UK :)

So I hope you like this giveaway guys and I really must thank all of you who follow me and have stuck with me this past year, going through the ups and downs with me, leaving the nicest comments and just generally being awesome. Also an extra special thank-you to you guys because without you I wouldn't have been shortlisted for a Cosmo Blog award and it really is the biggest and best surprise and I appreciate it more than you can ever know.


At least a week more...

Hey blogland

So I found out today that unfortunately my infection was MUCH further along than me or all my doctors had anticipated, even my Hammersmith doctors. Everyone including myself thought I had caught it in the nick of time, which I did, but unfortunately the wrong side of the nick of time in the sense that if I had left it a few more days it would have been a battle for my life rather than and infection. But now that we know and the fact that I feeling MUCH better means we know we are treating it right it just means I have to stay on very high doses of antibiotics for at least another 6 days to be absolutely certain that the infection is gone. 

At the moment we're not entirely certain whether I'll be moving to Hammersmith just yet but there is still a possibility as it doesn't matter what hospital I'm receiving them in but Hammersmith are having a massive bed shortage at the moment so they may not be able to spare a bed for me, to just sit in for 6 days whilst I get my antibiotics. I don't actually mind though because whilst I'm still in Swindon my family can come visit me and bring me stuff like food being my main priority at the moment lol. 

This also means a new line can't be put in my chest until the treatment is finished because that in itself is an infection risk, by adding a new line whilst I still 'potentially' have an infection means we could just be giving it a site to grow in so better to be safe than sorry. 

Other than me being slightly annoyed at the delay I'm doing good and still pretty much myself and plodding along. I'm going to try and get my parents to bring me my computer and my Internet dongle so I can post my 1year post and my giveaway because I really want to get that underway but trying to navigate your bedroom when your not in it is harder than I thought and I can't remember where my dongle is but my mum is trying to find it for you guys so it will happen soon I promise. 

As always thank you for your continued love and support and hopefully I will write again soon :) 

Stacie xoxo


Hospital update

Hey blogland

Once again this is on my phone so please forgive the awful quality. I just thought I'd give you guys a bit of an update about what's going on. 

So I'm still in hospital and still on a high dependancy ward. I'm being pumped full of antibiotics to try and fight the infection I have which has been discovered to have all stemmed from the allergic reaction I had from my dressings and the chloroprep that I usually use on the line site, or used to use I should say. 

I'm still not eating a lot but its picking up a little. I'm now retaining water so I've been put on water tablets which will hopefully fix that whilst also getting my potassium up as well. I'm taking the most disgusting potassium drink! I really can't describe into words how foul it is but it is the only option bar eating about 10 million bananas which I couldn't even if I was well enough to lol. 

I'm probably going to be in this hospital till Sunday/Monday where I will be transferred to Hammersmith who will then whip in a new line and hopefully I will swiftly be on the mend again :) 

A massive thank you to everyone who has wished me well it means so much and I promise to be fighting fit soon. 

Check out my twitter, Facebook group or Instagram if you want more regular updates :) 

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Lots of love 
Stacie xoxo


Bed bound and in Hospital...

Hey blog land, 

So this is going to be the quickest post you will hopefully ever see from me lol. I'm currently in hospital in Swindon bed bound because I got an infection in my line.

It all started Thursday evening where my right side of my chest was feeling a little tender and I just thought maybe I had laid on it funny, you know how you can wake up with a stiff neck a bit like that. So I went to sleep Thursday night feeling fine it was just a little sore. I then woke up Friday morning knowing that it was obviously something else. 

I didn't feel unwell just the soreness had become very inflamed and was traveling up my neck. I went down to parents asked them not to panic but I was pretty sure I had an infection and that I needed to go to A&E I tried to ring Hammersmith but it was too early in the morning And they had always advised to go straight to A&E in this type of situation. 

My older sister came to get me an off we went, luckily I turned up and it was very quiet. So they saw me straight away. Great western have actually been great and have been liaising with Hammersmith the entire time so they haven't done anything that Hammersmith haven't said its okay to do. 

They have yet to take out the infected line but I'm still waiting for a bed at Hammersmith which I probably won't get a bed till tomorrow when the whole PH team are back in to shout at some people lol. 

Everyone has been super lovely we've had a few hiccups like forgetting to remove the clamp and me having to teach the nurses how to make up my drug but nothing life threatening thankfully my family have been awesome delivering me stuff I have forgotten or ice drinks as I haven't been keeping any food down because the antibiotics they have me on are pretty strong but so long as I'm drinking plenty of fluids I'll be fine I even managed some jelly today whoop. 

So I'll try to keep you updated but I'm doing this on my phone as u can probably tell lol and my one year giveaway and post will probably be a little late but it will happen I promise :) 

Me in A&E lol

Talk soon guys xoxo


Papworth transplant patients day...

Good evening Blogland 

So today me and my twin sister Megan went to a transplant patient day at my transplant hospital Papworth, where they set up a marquee where we could all mingle and and listen to some of the doctors and nurses talk about all transplant things. For me it was a little disheartening in some respects because I asked if they were planning on doing anything on improving how many heart and lung transplants they are doing and the answer was a bit rubbish. Sometimes I feel like those of us waiting for all three are kind of at the bottom of the heap in regards to be chosen, like sometimes I think the only reason I had my false alarm is because the  the organs were from someone who had a history of drug use. Also in the last year medical year (which runs in the financial year April-March) there was only 2 heart and lung transplants which actually was only really one because we know the person who got them LOL. 

The great thing about today was I got to meet a a fellow transplant buddy Bernice who is also waiting for a heart and lung transplant but has Cystic Fibrosis which is why she is waiting. If you want to check out her blog please do it's great and from a different perspective on the transplant thing from the eyes of a different disease. Her blog is either in my sidebar or you can get to it by pressing here. I also got to see my friends Kath who is a fellow Pher and heart and lung transplant awaitee and her husband Rob and it was really lovely to see them I hadn't seen them since October so it was good to catch up. Kath also has a blog and it really is a good one she writes amazingly and I highly recommend it, once again it's in my sidebar of you can see it by clicking here

Also the wonderful part of the day was that I got to see my friend Anne in intensive care with Kath. Anne had a major setback last week and she is still in quite a bad way but she was awake and talking and seemed really pleased to see us both and it was just great to get some reassurance by actually physically seeing her and talking to her. Also it was actually really cool to see the inside of Intensive care. I've never been in it and I assumed it was going to be like the rest of the hospital which has quite dark, slim corridors and sometimes seems quite small (I know it isn't but it seems that way) but anyway I walked in there and it was HUGE! I really didn't expect it to be so big! So basically I was pleased because I got to see where I'll wake up after my transplant. I like to prepare myself for things and it was good to see it :).  

I took a few photos nothing all that interesting but I got bored in the car for 6 hours LOL 

Kath, Bernice, Me and Megan :) 


Cosmo Blog Awards!

I know I only did a blog post Yesterday But I have AMAZING News!!!! I made the shortlist for the Cosmo Blog Awards!!! I am actually in shock because I really never thought I would even get a look in and to be chosen even in the shortlist is amazing!

I obviously must thank you guys the people who read my blog and if you can just go vote for me again HERE I would be so eternally grateful. It's in the lifestyle section and under Life is Worth the Fight :). 

I have been jumping up and down like a lunatic for the past 5 minutes which has resulted in chest pains but so totally worth it! 

You have until the 30th August and I will put a link in all of my blogposts from now until then  so please wish me luck and get voting :D It's Best Lifestyle blog category and then you just tick Life is Worth The Fight  and carry on to the end and make sure you press submit :)

Chat soon Guys


Papworth and Transplant week...

Hey Blogland, 

This post is just gonna be a bit of an update as I went to Papworth for my Transplant clinic on the Friday just gone and just a bit of info for you guys on transplant week as well as that is happening from the 8th. 

So I went to Papworth on Friday (5th) just for a routine check-up type thing and I think I can officially say I have now met all the transplant doctors. I got to meet a doctor I haven't met and she was saying how she was making an effort to meet ALL the people who are waiting for transplants at Papworth and I hadn't met her yet so she wanted to meet me. Apparently my reputation proceeds me, she seemed to know a lot about me and I don't just mean normal medical stuff that she should know but a lot of my personality traits and stuff going on in my life type stuff which was odd but she did say the doctors tend to talk about me a lot and that she had very much been looking forward to meeting me which I think is obviously a very nice thing for her to say, if not slightly embarrassing. I now can't help but wonder what they say, but it can't be bad otherwise she wouldn't have wanted to meet me. Right?

I also got see loads of the transplant co-ordinators on Friday which was odd because sometimes I don't see any or only one, but it was sooo lovely to catch up with them and have just little chats, they all knew I had, had my false alarm back in May and so we talked about that and also they seemed positive that my transplant will be this year because if I had a false alarm then they are confident that there aren't very many people similar to me within weight range, blood type, antibodies and all the other stuff they have to match up so thats a bit of a confidence boost, which we like. 

One annoying thing is I haven't really been paying all that much attention to my weight recently, it's something I really get annoyed with at times and although I know it's important that I stay within a certain range for them but my brain just doesn't seem to engage and I find losing weight very hard or at least very hard to stick to. Especially in this weather we've been having of late all I want to do is eat ice-cream and a lot of it! But my current BMI is 28 which although is not higher than their maximum of 30 they just want me to bring it down a little to 26 again and if I can 24-25. I find losing weight so hard though! (rant over LOL)   

I was meant to meet my friend who had a transplant back in May but unfortunately she has taken a turn for the worse and I didn't want to get in peoples way so I decided it was best not to intrude, but hopefully she will get better and I have all fingers and toes crossed and as much positivity as I can muster going her way :). 

 It's transplant Week this week as well guys  

Now I'm not really doing anything for transplant week this year except going to a transplant event that I have been invited to at Papworth this coming Thursday. But the general gist of transplant week is as the picture above suggests to get people to "PASS IT ON" so basically just try and get people to recognise the serious shortage of organs in the UK right now. Try and get people to sign up if you can and if thats not possible just get people thinking about it and talking to their families about their wishes that type of thing. 

I'm not one of those people who is adamant that everyone signs up, I mean I would love it if they did, but I want people to be talking with their friends and families more than anything because ultimately if you were to die (heaven forbid) you actually have zero say, zero choice in what happens to you after, but if you have spoken to families and friends about what you want and have made it clear to them that you do or don't want your organs to be donated then that makes that decision a million times easier on them in a time where they probably can't even put a coherent thought together. But if they KNOW that is what you want they can follow through on YOUR wishes. 

There is always the link in my side bar if you want to sign up or just click here and that will take you right to it. 

Oooo and if you want go check out the website for transplant week here

So guys if you see anything on Twitter or Facebook this week involving transplant week just give it a casual Retweet/share/like just get involved and maybe just maybe you might just save someone life by doing that. 

Chat soon Guys



End it Movement!


Hiya Blogland, 

As you guys saw with one of my latest posts I posted about something other than what affects me and shared with you something other than PH or organ donation. This is going to be another post and it is something I think that everybody should be aware of.  

I have recently become aware of the “end it movement” this movement intends to shine a light on slavery. Now I have just finished a module in my history degree and it taught us about slavery back through the 17 & 18 hundreds and basically it implies that slavery ended in the late 1800’s.


27 MILLION people don't have the freedom which every human being has a right to.

Slavery exists STILL for 27 million men, women and children. They are being used in brothels and used for sex trafficking, child labouring, in quarries and factories and these 27 million people don’t have a voice. The end it movement plans to shine a light slavery, giving those 27 million men, women and children the voice they don’t have. 

These people who choose to take away some-ones freedom and to subject these people to horrors unknown to you or I get away with it because people choose to ignore it.

Now I’m not saying you have to donate money but you just have to know and spread the message. Slavery is wrong and the fact that it still exists today, in what most people consider a free society, is wrong! It even exists in places like the US and the UK not only 3rd world countries. It exists all over the world!
I know this topic is a bit of a deep but all you have to do is know that it exists and if all you do is visit their website, or share something on Facebook or Twitter about it you are helping spread the word and helping to END IT! And if you choose to do something more then great, but modern day slavery needs to end and we need to be the generation says "NO! No more"

Are you In it to End It?

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Books Books and more Books...

Hey Blogland, 

Well as you all know I have this 3 month break in-between my uni modules and therefore I have a lot of spare time, so much spare time in fact that I managed to read 5 books in 4 days and after beginning this post it turned into 10 books in a week whoops. I know insane! 

I am one of the those people that if I enjoy a book I can't put it down till I'm finished, I went to my INR appointments and I took my kindle, I went places with my sister my kindle came with! As anti-social as this is it is an unfortunate side of me that any-one in my life has to deal with, it's irreversible I'm afraid. 

So I thought I would share a few thoughts on them, I'm not someone who is great at book reviews but thought I'd share a few of my views on the books I've been reading and whether I think others should give them a go too.  

Before we get started I should probably warn you that I'm a hopeless romantic when it comes to books I'm always routing for a couple to get together whether thats a bad idea or not and I read a lot of romantic based books, so just a little FYI for you all there:- 

So firstly we have Divergent by Veronica Roth. Amazon describe as this --> 

I'm a little bit useless when it comes to describing things why do we think I only got a C in English Literature and Language? So I will be taking the blurb from amazon. This book presents a different version of the world that we know, one separated into factions all of which have different characteristics that define that faction. At the age of 16 they are made to decide, after a 'test' of sorts, whether they will stay in the faction they have grown up in or whether they will go to another faction altogether, all but abandoning their family this is the choice that is faced by Tris (main character). When she makes the choice Tris is faced with an entirely new life and turns to and falls in love with the last person she expects to. 

I really enjoyed this book because it was something I hadn't come across before, it had bit of a Hunger Games-esque-ness to it but it was different. It also includes a nice romance story as well which I'm always partial to because I always love routing for a couple to succeed. I think if your a Hunger games fan then this will certainly be up your alley.  

Here we have Insurgent the 2nd in the Divergent trilogy and amazon describe it as this --> 

Insurgent starts from where Divergent leaves off, this one includes a bit more trials and tribulations as Tris must uncover some secrets, it involves lying and deceit to some of the people she loves and trusts most but at the end we are left we quite a cliffhanger that leaves you wanting to read the 3rd book immediately which unfortunately doesn't come out till later this year. 

I think this book wasn't quite as good as Divergent but in my experience trilogies tend to have a 'filler' book as I like to call it, the one that may not be quite as good as the first book but is paving the way for the big finale in the 3rd and final book which I cannot wait to read!!! 

Thoughtless is the first book of the thoughtless trilogy by S.C. Stephens and amazon describes it as this --> 
Once again this book brings out the hopeless romantic in me, not that I ever condone cheating of any kind, this book truly does make you route for the couple that you know should be together. Kiera and Denny are the couple that seem to be together simply for obligation sake and although Denny seems like a nice guy, you can't help but love Kellan more. This book is also followed on by effortless and reckless (which I also read) and they are probably equally as good as thoughtless. These books aren't what I would say are  go out immediately and buy them type books but if you are in-between books and have the spare time then read them type books and they make you feel happy after you have read them :).  
Beautiful Disaster by Jamie McGuire is the first of two books and amazon describes it as --> 
Abby Abernathy doesn't drink or swear and she works hard. Abby believes she has created enough distance between her and the darkness of her past, but when she arrives at college, her dreams of a new beginning are quickly challenged by the university's walking one-night stand. Bad Boy. Travis Maddox, handsome, built, and covered in tattoos, is exactly what Abby needs - and wants - to avoid. He spends his nights winning money in a floating fight club, and his days as the notorious college Lothario. A disaster waiting to happen...Intrigued by Abby's resistance to his charms, Travis tricks her into his life with a simple bet. If he loses, he must remain celibate for a month. If Abby loses, she must live in Travis' apartment for the same amount of time. Or the start of something beautiful? Either way, Travis has no idea that he has met his match. Or that this is the start of an obsessive, intense relationship that will lead them both into unimaginable territory...

This book was introduced to me by some of my friends on twitter and I can't tell you how pleased I am that I read it! You fall in love with Travis immediately and although you should be repulsed by the fact that he is a 'walking one night stand' you just can't help but love him. He has a cheeky boyish charm about him that you can't help but love and then he seems to fall head over heels for Abby who he affectionately nicknames 'pigeon'. This book is also followed on by 'Walking Disaster' which is from Travis' point of view which makes you love him even more. If you read this I think you will want a Travis Maddox in your life

Now the Providence trilogy by Jamie McGuire is 'providence', 'Requiem' & 'Eden'  and Amazon describe them like this---> 
PROVIDENCE: In the old world shadows of Providence, Rhode Island, Nina Grey finds herself the center of a war between Hell and Earth.Struggling with her father’s recent death, Nina meets Jared Ryel by chance…or so she believes. Although his stunning good looks and mysterious talents are a welcome distraction, it soon becomes clear that Jared knows more about Nina than even her friends at Brown University. When questions outnumber answers, Jared risks everything to keep the woman he was born to save—by sharing the secret he was sworn to protect.When her father’s former associates begin following her in the dark, Nina learns that her father is not the man she thought he was, but a thief who stole from demons. Searching for the truth behind her father’s death, Nina stumbles upon something she never expected—something Hell wants—and only she holds the key. 

REQUIEM: Dreaming of the dead might mean a restless night for anyone, but for Nina Grey it was a warning.Still healing from her last run-in with Hell, Nina struggles with not only her life as a Brown University student, but also as an intern at Titan Shipping, her father's company. Recurring nightmares about her father's violent death have become a nightly event, but being overwhelmed with guilt from Ryan's unexpected departure to the Armed Forces, and heart ache over Claire being across the ocean to protect him, Nina believes her sleepless nights are the least of her problems—but she's wrong.Worried about Nina's declining health, Jared must steal back Shax's book for answers. Fighting new enemies, and with the help of new friends, Jared's worst fear comes to fruition. Desperate, he is faced with a choice: Fight Hell alone, or start a war with Heaven.

EDEN: She had seen the unspeakable. She had learned the unknowable. Now, she would fight the invincible.In the third and final installment of the Providence series, Nina Grey will marry the wrong man, carry the child that was never supposed to be born, and fight a war she can’t win.Faced with the impossible task of protecting his new wife and unborn child against the throes of Hell, Jared Ryel is allowed no mistakes. Pressured to return the Naissance de Demoniac to Jerusalem, he revisits St. Ann’s to learn the answers were in front of him all along.Together, they must survive long enough to let their child save them—and the world.

Now these actually aren't something I would normally read which you may find unusual because it is essentially a love story but I do tend to avoid books which surround god and that type of thing. But I brought this set on a whim because I figured seeing how the author is the same as the one who wrote Beautiful disaster and Walking Disaster then it might be worth a go and it was only like £6.00 for all three so bargain!
This is actually a really beautiful story surrounding guardian angels and love that was just meant to be. Jared and Nina have to fight heaven and hell, literally, to be together and it's a beautiful story about perseverance and fighting against all the odds. 

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I think out of all of them my favourite has to be beautiful disaster but the providence trilogy, divergent and insurgent come in a close second. 

If any of you want to recommend books for me to read then please do because I'm currently trying to find some that I really want to read. I don't mind different genres I was just obviously going through a romantic phase this week lol just not the criminal, go into a tonne of detail about murdering some-one, type books they tend to freak me out.

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