2.10.13

Nerves...

Hey Blogland, 

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So I'm really nervous about today and the Cosmo Blog Awards! There is just about a million things whizzing through my brain that just won't stop. It's strange I'm pretty good with people generally but the anticipation of meeting so many people and walking into a room full of strangers whom I don't know, or have only ever spoken to via twitter is rather daunting. I suppose I'm quite lucky I'm one of the few people who gets a plus one because of my situation but that still doesn't help me because Megan is just as nervous as me, if not more so. 

I've got so many things that I can't stop thinking about right now, I have to remember my drugs, I hate catching trains and I have to try and stay calm about that one because Megan hates catching trains a million times more than me so I have to be the calm one in that situation. I think maybe once we get to the hotel I'll calm down a little more but I'm not all that convinced I will. 

Then there's this meeting new people malarky. I'm pretty sure all these people are going to be beautiful and skinny and I can't help but feel a little self conscious because I'm just MIss Plain Jane. I'm worried because I feel a bit like a fraud, I'm not what I would consider a professional blogger and looking at all the other blogs which have been shortlisted they just seem far more put together and what I would consider professional looking and I just feel like I cannot hold a candle to them. 

And finally I'll also be worried about my friend Kath who had her transplant 2 days ago. This is something I cannot control at all this unfortunately is in the hands of the doctors and Kath herself. Kath has yet to wake up because the doctors are giving her heart some rest time to recover from such a major surgery and whilst this is in the realm of normal for transplants I can't help but worry because I'm a natural worrier it's what I do. I'm going to try not to worry tonight but there is always a small part of my brain that won't be able to take my mind off of it. 

Right I need to go pack some last minute bits and bobs before me and Meg catch the train and I will promise to try not to worry or be too nervous :-/ but I just needed to get that out :)

 chat soon guys
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7 comments:

  1. Dear Stacie, when you're sitting on the train (or ideally before!) put your feet firmly on the ground, close your eyes & try to relax your body, breathe slowly. You are amazing, beautiful (inside & out) & have an amazing personality ! To all of us your blog is full of inspiration, personality, humour, meaning & education. How could you get a better blog? Need I go on? Hold your head up high if not for yourself for all your followers & everyone who knows you. Kath might be asleep but she's still rooting for you! Love Maria x: )

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  2. Hi Stacie,
    I've been a silent reader for quite a while just because I always feel like I can't find the right words to say.
    I just wanted you to know that this blog is wonderful & I admire so much your ability to speak openly about many difficult things. you are such a strong and beautiful person. it is reflected in every post.
    Good luck with this award!

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  3. Hi Stacie,
    I've been a silent reader for quite a while just because I always feel like I can't find the right words to say.
    I just wanted you to know that this blog is wonderful & I admire so much your ability to speak openly about many difficult things. you are such a strong and beautiful person. it is reflected in every post.
    Good luck with this award!

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  4. Your blog is amazing, as are you. I wish you all the best for tonight.
    Trains aren't so bad... just don't panic... you'll be fine!
    Lottie xx

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  5. Good luck good luck for this evening lovely! Will be thinking of you! And my thoughts are with your friend too. xxx

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  6. Your blog is a winner, with or without the award!!!!!! good luck and HAVE FUN :)

    XOXO

    Lori in California

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  7. Best of luck at the awards! Your blog is amazing!
    Kellebelle
    www.blinkandyoullmiss.com

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