28.9.13

One proud Twin...

Hey Blogland,

So my twin sister gave me some awesome news. She got a job that she's finally happy with. 

Megan has never really known what she wanted to do with her life until the past few years, the past few years she has been determined that she wanted to be nurse. Until recently we didn't know that the NHS only excepts University trained nurses until we were told by some of my nurses back when I had my infection. The problem is Megan has never been one to sit and listen to lectures and absorb the information, don't get me wrong I'm not saying Megan is stupid she is actually very smart but she learns on the job, she's just an active learner, its just the way she learns. 

For the past year and half she's believed she can become a nurse by getting in via some small job and working her way up, that's actually how you could become a nurse at one point and she was really upset that, that was the case but being my sister she has never given up. 

Just like most adults Megan currently has a job that merely pays the bills, she can't stand her job. She works in a call centre and her job eats at her. She gets phone calls from people threatening to kill themselves while she's on the phone because they owe the bank money. Even though she works in costumer services it's more about selling them things they don't need than actually providing the people with a service they actually need and it eats away at her. 

The past month or so Meg has actually been off ill from work because her job is making her ill, it is giving her migraines where she can barely stand people talking to her because their voices are too loud and she just seemed physically and mentally drained the stress of it was making her ill. Having to hit selling targets when you thought you were applying for a job where you help people but actually don't stresses her out, you get encouraged to sell things to people that they don't need and she hates it. But she does it because she needs to pay her bills, buy food you know everything everybody needs money for. 

So while she's been trying to recuperate she's also been trying to find a job in a field that she would be happy in, being the kind hearted soul my sister is she wants to help people. She really wanted to become a nurse who specialised in my condition ultimately but she can never do the university thing so she's settling with helping other people instead of me.

I got a phone call from her yesterday and she told me that she got a job at a place nearby that helps disabled children, they provide respite for families who have disabled, mentally and physically, children. She'll be able to work her way up through the place by doing NVQ's which is on the job training and she'll actually be doing something that she wants to do and helping people.

So to say I'm one proud twinny is an understatement!  

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26.9.13

The perfect gift...

 

Heya Blogland, 

So back in June more specifically the 4th my parents celebrated their 25th Wedding anniversary. I consider this quite a feet especially in the day and age that we live in whereby celebrities get married for literally a few hours as if it's a joke, so to say I'm proud of my parents is an understatement. 

Back in June I found it really difficult trying to figure out what I should get my parents because I thought since it's such a special occasion I wanted to get something that mattered but at the time I had complete brain freeze and ended up getting completely generic gifts with no sentimentality behind them at all, I also went a bit OTT on the balloons :). 

So one of my friends shared a little page on Facebook called Beautiful Piglet Designs and whilst having a look around I discovered some beautiful designs on cards, bespoke pictures with the most detailed paper cutting I had ever seen. They are some of the most unique things I've ever come across. You can have whatever your heart desires.

I wanted something unique for my Mum and Dad and I loved the idea of a family tree to show how far our family had come in 25 years. Obviously our family will continue to expand, my sisters will get married and probably have more children but on their 25th wedding anniversary this is what my family looked like and I wanted them to have a reminder of that. 

I'm so impressed with how wonderful it came out and I couldn't be happier with the way it looks. I think when my sister gets married I will once again be investing in something for her because they truly are the most beautiful and unique things I've come across and I think whom ever you give something like this too know that you really thought about what you wanted to give them and the fact that it's all hand cut adds an extra element to it. 

If you want to check out all their other stuff you can visit their website here or go to their facebook page here. I highly recommend them as they really go above and beyond! 

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23.9.13

I'm going to be on TV again...

Heya Blogland, 

So normally I don't blog twice in one day and I didn't intend to but I forgot to let you guys know that I would be on T.V. tonight on Channel 4 at 7:55pm where I talk about organ donation and all that stuff it's not very long but I hope that it gets a few people talking and signing up :) 

Here is the link http://www.4thought.tv/themes/should-organ-donation-be-a-gift-or-enforced/stacie-pridden?cntsrc=sn_4thoughttv_facebook and I hope you enjoy it I'm really pleased with how it came out even though it took hours to film for a couple of minutes LOL. 

Me, meg and James playing around with my computer :) 

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NEW LOOK | LACE UP PLATFORM BOOTS




Hey Blogland, 

So item number 2 on my Cosmo blog awards outfit list was Shoes. Now I'm not your typical shoe loving kind of gal. I find shopping for shoes a chore and get absolutely no pleasure out of it. I think this is for a multitude of reasons I prefer to be in my house with a cosy pair of slipper socks on or just plain old slippers and then there's the fact I have man feet depending on what type of shoe it is I'm either a 7 or an 8, these particular shoes are an 8, but that just puts me off shopping as it requires too much work on my part. Then my right foot is bigger than my left foot and that just causes problems because I prefer not to buy one shoe bigger than the other and I have to decide which is more comfortable a bigger shoe on my left foot or squeezing my right foot into a slightly too small shoe and don't even get me started on sandals lol... 

Now all that being said these shoes are the perfect type of shoes for a not so shoe loving type of gal. These are really good for me in the sense that they will go with a lot of my clothing something I generally look for in shoes is that I can pretty much wear it with anything, it's the complete opposite of me buying dresses, I have dresses that I've worn once or actually never in my wardrobe which I know sounds awful but some of them I'm just waiting for the 'right' occasion to wear them.

As a general rule I don't wear stiletto heels due to the fact they require far to much effort to walk in and buy the end of an evening either my feet hurt too much or I will have fallen over too many times to count. These are great because they have a chunky heal that I'll be able to walk in and the platform will make them even easier to walk in and really comfortable to. This is also good because then I'm unlikely to fall over and make a total prat of myself in front of strangers :). 

I also love the fact that they are simple and won't detract from the outfit and will just compliment it :) 

Go find them here

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21.9.13

RIVER ISLAND | BOWLER BAG




Heya Blogland, 

So over the past few weeks I have been shopping for some very specific items. With the Cosmo Blog Awards looming I have had to put together and coordinate a outfit that I feel comfortable in but still looks good. The next few posts I write will be the things that I will be wearing and taking with me. So todays post is the bag I will be taking with me. 

Now ideally I would have preferred to have taken a really cute small shoulder bag or a clutch bag but circumstances being what they are I had to find a black bag that fit all my medication in without being hideously large to. Whilst this being inconvenient for style purposes as I would very much have preferred a small clutch to go with my dress it does however mean I will probably get a lot more use out a larger bag on a day to day basis and that is where the Bowler bag comes in.  

As a rule I love River Island bags I would say about 70% of my bags are River Island. This bag was £40.00 which is probably about average for their bags and I don't mind paying that kind of money when I know the bag is of decent quality and I get the use out of it. My experience with River Island bags is that they are extremely durable and very convenient as with most of their bags you get two different carrying possibilities with two top handles and a adjustable long strap. 

The dimensions of the bag are Height 23cm, width 33cm, so definitely not the biggest bag I've owned but big enough that I will be able to carry all my medication with me to the party without people wondering why I've brought everything but the kitchen sink in my handbag :). 

I will always recommend River Island bags as they are of exceedingly good quality and always very roomy on the inside for all those essentials we girls tend to carry :) 

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20.9.13

Dwindling Hope...

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So today is my 17 month transplant-list-aversary. In all honesty I'm losing a bit of hope when it comes to actually getting my call, it just seems that as soon as you hit a certain point you kind of just assume it will never happen. I kind of just see it as a sad fact of life at this point, but for as long I continue to breathe I will have some hope remaining. 

The problem is the longer I wait the more I think that those of us waiting for both Heart and Lungs are definitely at the bottom of a very deep pile. I haven't heard of anyone having both in a while and the more time that passes that you don't hear of people having both the more any remaining hope you have just drips away. I know I'm being a tad depressing today but I'm sure once today is out of the way my positivity will bounce back. It's just today is one big massive reminder of how long I've been waiting and how it may never happen, and it's a little annoying that there is physically nothing I can really do about it, it's in the hands of strangers whom I have never met.  

My channel 4 thing goes out on Monday by the way at 7:55pm, I'm a little worried my point of view may have come across a bit skewed because I'm not the biggest advocate for the opt out system that Wales have just implemented. Don't get me wrong I think it is potentially a great idea but at the moment we don't know the strictness of it and how affectively it will run, I'm a bigger advocate of getting people to talk to their families. I think the main problem I have with the opt out system is that if a son/daughter died and they hadn't talked to their family about what they wanted and their family was firmly against taking any of their organs and they still took them that would force a lot of people to opt out We just don't know exactly how it will run yet. I just have a few reservations about it, thats all. Therefore the reason I'm a little worried about my point of view coming across a bit skewed is that I babble when I talk and I find it hard to get what I'm saying across without seeming like a idiot lol. Hopefully it'll be good though no matter what :)

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15.9.13

3 years on...

Hey Blogland, 

So 3 years ago on 14th of September 2010 my oldest Nephew Jaydon was born after what seemed like the longest 9 and half months ever! Even though he arrived 10 days early. I cannot believe it has been three years since he was born and I'm extremely pleased that I got to be here to see him turn three. He's the cutest most adorable 3 year old ever although sometimes he does enjoy a good tantrum as does any three year old. He loves Toy story more than anything and will make you watch the DVD about 10 million times and won't get bored with it in fact he now enacts it with his own buzz lightyear toy. He also loves Cars and currently Spiderman which he has fallen head over heals for and was an extremely happy child when he got a few spidermen toys for his birthday presents. 

On his birthday we held a Pirate themed party for him because he also currently has a thing for pirates and for a few of his little friends, he had pirate cupcakes, a treasure hunt, pin the eyepatch on the pirate, lots of presents and lots of food too. Me and Megan made sure to dress up as lady pirates because we don't mind an excuse to dress up. Jaydon and his little friends dressed up too and I think it was a pretty successful party overall :). 
Treasure hunt prize and tower of cupcakes

  
 
Candice's friend sam brought over glitter tattoos and we adults were a little bit excited about getting one :)
I'm extremely excited to see what my sister wants to do next year for his 4th birthday. 

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13.9.13

Maybelline...

Hey Blogland,

So my next uni modules starts soon and therefore my brain has hit procrastination mode and as a result I have been watching far too many YouTube videos, which a lot have consisted of back to school make-up tutorials which I so wish had existed back when I was at school as I would have looked much better during my school days lol. I know I'm not going back to school but I'll literally do/watch anything to avoid having to any work. But in the process of watching all these videos a few items stood out on my to-buy list all of which happen to be Maybelline. 

Maybelline Baby Lips | Cherry Me | Pink Punch
Maybelline Baby Lips | Cherry Me | Pink Punch 
Maybelline Eye-studio | Iced Fudge | Beige Nude
These few things stood out to me for several reasons, one autumn/winter is on the horizon and me being some-one who has lips that react ridiculously to any change in weather and I spend most of the autumn applying vast quantities of lip balm, vaseline etc. Maybelline's baby lips seemed like a good alternative of a lip balm whilst also adding some lip colour. So far in my week or so of using them they seem pretty good, my lips feel better for using them and they also smell amazing. The price tag is also pretty good I brought both of these at £2.99 and currently at Boots they are buy on get one half price so certainly worth it I think :). 

I then brought Maybelline's New York eye studio in the colours Iced Fudge and Beige Nude. I'm all for mute nude tones and these seem like really good colours for me especially seeing as I'm hitting pan on a lot of my other nude coloured eyeshadows which should show how much I use them as I have a lot of nude/brown eyeshadows. These also have a bit of shimmer to them as well which I very much like the look of. They were also only £4.09 each which makes me a very happy girl as I'm pretty skint at the moment which therefore means my budget for anything make-up related is pretty much non existent . My Birthday and Christmas couldn't come sooner :D 

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11.9.13

Questions...

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So today I'm kind of going to be addressing a few things that I hadn't really thought to talk about because I've kind of skimmed over them in the past but never really gone into them in like massive detail and in all honesty I kind of assume people already know the reason behind these things, which is completely naive because why would you but I think in my mind it would seem obvious. But at present  I have been asked quite a few times in the past few weeks the two of the same questions so I thought I would address them in a blogpost just to sort of get it out there and for anyone wondering but feels it's too rude to ask LOL. 

So these two questions have been;- Why don't I have a boyfriend?/Do plan on getting a boyfriend? & Can I have children?/Will I have children? or in these general formats. 

So lets address them shall we. 

For those wondering whether waiting for a transplant affects having a relationship and why I don't have a boyfriend this is for you. I would assume waiting for a transplant would put a strain on a relationship but for me I made the decision that I wouldn't even attempt to get a boyfriend till after I had my transplant. There are several reasons for this and quite a few of the people in my life think I'm being ridiculous and then there are others who completely understand where I'm coming from. So the first reason is that if I was to start dating someone that didn't know me or anything about me I wouldn't tell that person that I was ill/dying because how awkward would that make a first date "Oh yeah just one small thing, I'm dying and waiting for a transplant and I'm not likely to make it to my 25th birthday" that just stops any and all interest right there. Therefore i would obviously eventually have to tell that person and I would feel awful because I would have essentially tricked that person into a relationship without them knowing all the facts, and just put yourself in that situation and how awful you would feel. There's a massive difference if you are already in a relationship before this all goes down because they already love you and would go through the roller coaster that is transplant life with you because they love you, whereas trying to start a relationship when you already know that the probability of you dying is much harder. 

Then that brings into question a whole other set of questions, if I were by chance to find someone that was okay with the whole dying thing, waiting for a transplant thing, are they only staying with you 1. out of obligation? because they feel sorry for you? or 2. because they know you won't last that long? So they aren't actually committing to anything. It's a completely different kettle of fish to some-one who was in relationship years before any of the transplant stuff happens because those people know that their partners love them for them. 

Then there's the other reason that I don't want to add people to the list of people I already have to say goodbye to if I do die. It would be extremely selfish and indulgent of me to enter into a relationship with someone knowing that I might die in the near future, it just wouldn't be fair on that person. There are people who tell me that I'm being ridiculous and that most people wouldn't even think twice about the whole transplant thing but the people who tell me these things are people who have known me for years and have been on the journey with me, it's different coming into things this late in the game. But saying all this you can't plan these things and whatever happens happens. 

Onto the next topic, children. Can I have them? Do I plan to have them if I got my transplant?

The answer is simply no I can't have children. I can physically get pregnant but the actual process of carrying a child for 10months (not 9months it's a conspiracy LOL) and then actually having a baby would kill me. The strain on my heart and lungs would be too great and even for ordinary people with PH who aren't waiting for transplants the mortality rate for women having babies is 50% although I do believe this is getting better with better understanding and earlier diagnosis of PH. The problem is you would have to come off your medication whilst carrying a baby which in turn would mean your condition would get worse and it's just not physically possible for most of us. Then there's the fact I personally just wouldn't risk my own life to do that. 

Then even after transplant it isn't really an option. One of the first questions they asked me when they were assessing me for transplant was whether I wanted kids/planned on having them because they seriously frown upon it. Having a baby post transplant risks your new organs because once again you probably have to come off of most them because they would affect the baby and the meds you're on post transplant you take to keep those organs in good nick. I have known since I was about 11 years old that I wasn't going to have the typical get married have babies kind of life and I've very much accepted the fact that I can't have children and to be honest I probably wouldn't even adopt if I get my transplant. I have my nephews and nieces and I really like the fact that I get to be the cool aunty and none of the responsibility of parenthood because it looks damn hard. 

I feel like thats a bit controversial because whenever people find out that I can't have children they look at me with pity and say how sorry they are that that's the case but I genuinely don't mind and I actually don't think I would have children even if I could, and I usually tell them that and then they look at me like I'm crazy because what kind of person doesn't want children? Although saying that if I had grown up normally it could be a completely different answer. 

So there you have it guys. I'm sorry it's a little lengthy but it's just quite a few people have asked me recently and I just assumed everyone already knew but obviously that wasn't the case so now I can just direct people to this blogpost without tripping over my words trying to explain it to them. 

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9.9.13

Harry Potter Studios...

Hey Blogland, 

So Megan, James and I all went to Harry Potter Studios. Now Megan had actually given tickets to me for my 21st birthday present and we went back in April of last year just a few months before I started this blog. The Studios had just opened for people to go in and look around and we loved every second of it and we were just as excited to be going back and the fact that James wanted to go just gave a awesome excuse to go back :). 

If you grew up watching Harry Potter like me and Megan did and you love it as much as we do then I completely recommend going and seeing it, it exceeds every and all expectations of it, except maybe the butter beer that is disgusting! And yes ladies and gentlemen I finally caved and brought a wand the best £24.95 I ever spent :D I actually brought Hermione's wand because James told me I couldn't have the elder wand because he was buying it, boys, but Hermione's is really pretty and I'm really pleased with it. I also brought a bunch of other stuff and I took pictures of the stuff Meg and James brought as well so you could see that too :D. 











I have been told by Megan and James that I am not allowed to zoom on their pictures because  they hate theirs I however didn;t mind my one so thought I'd show you them :) 
Me on a broom :D
In the car :D 
Everything we brought - Gryffindor pillow £18.50 | Harry Potter film artefact box £34.95 | Quill lolly £2.95 | Dark Mark lolly £2.95 | Car and Broom photos 4 for £24 | Chocolate wand £3.95 | Ministry of Magic mug £9.95 | Hermione Granger wand £24.95 | The elder wand/Dumbledores wand £24.95 
My ministry of magic Mug £9.95
Megan's Harry Potter memorabilia box £34.95
Megan's Harry Potter memorabilia box £34.95
Quill and dark mark lollipops £2.95 each
Chocolate wand £3.95

Mine and James's new wands £24.95 each  
I hope that many of you reading this get to experience the magic of Harry Potter Studios, it is wonderful :D

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