25.2.14

Fantasy, Reality and everything in-between...

Hey Blogland, 

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You know me and my sister when she used to live at home and we shared a room would used to have the most in depth conversations about the places we read about in books, the magical far off lands that those books took us too and we wished with all of our hearts that they were real. (She's gonna kill me after she reads this LOL) 

I don't have a belief system at all, if god exists, I hate him, I often wonder whether reincarnation exists, that sometimes crosses my mind but something I always wonder about is if I don't have a belief system what does that mean for me when I die? I don't want to believe that there's nothing after this, our lives are far to limited and short for this to be it, even those that make it to grand old ages of 100. If you think about it 100 years is nothing the universe and the world has been around for millions and billions of years, 100 years in the face of all that time is like a spec of dust. How does a small spec of dust make an impact on the universe, on the world, on time?  

I know thats a big question and one nobody is likely to ever answer. Although thinking about it maybe Hitler achieved that impact. Attemptive Genocide will do that for someone.

So when we were younger (I say younger like I don't still want it to happen, but I do so much!) Megan and I would discuss our books and a particular one being Harry Potter and one of our favourite programmes being Charmed and I remember quite vividly a conversation we had about how if we were to die we hoped we got to choose where we got to go whether fictional or real life. Then the conversation started to go off onto a tangent about what if I chose a certain place (because obviously I'm going first) and Meg chose a different place we needed to choose the same place to be together. I think we decided on Harry Potter in the end because obviously we wanted to go to Hogwarts and learn magic and all that stuff. We did have the conversation about the fact that Voldemort would be there but we came to the conclusion that no matter where we picked there would always be a bad person, or situation and the fact that magic would exist and all that cool stuff outweighed the whole Voldemort issue.

I know it sounds ridiculous and childish, but the more books I read as I get older and the far off places I get to visit when I read those books it just makes me really not want to believe that this is it, this can't be all there is. I haven't made the impact I want to make on the world, I haven't had enough time to make any sort of an impact. So I suppose I'm sort of hoping this can't be it and at least if I do die I can pick some other reality, fantasy land where I can continue to try and make an impact. 

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14 comments:

  1. I think you'd be surprised at what kind of an impact you've already had on this world if you talked to the people who know you. I'm sure many others think highly of you and find you an inspiration, I know I do.

    Molly (from FB) x

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    1. Awww thank-you Molly. I never really feel like I make an impact because I'm just being me so it's hard to see it from this side lol. Hope you are feeling better :) xoxo

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  2. I've been the same as you for so many years. But it's truly all about the way you view the world. It's all there, all the magic and love if you really open your eyes.

    As for magical lands with talking animals, wands that makes things fly etc, I like to believe that they are out there as well. Just too bad that I'm not a part of them.

    Loved reading this :)

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    1. Yeah I think once I get my transplant I'll be able to go out and explore all the wonders the world has to offer, I'm so looking forward to it :). I kind of hope that all the magic lands, wands etc. are out there that would make me so happy :D xoxo

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  3. Hi Stacie,
    I have just come across your blog and want to say how inspiring you are. I am 21 and have recently had a stem cell transplant and blog about my fight with cancer if you want to have a read. I really pray you have your transplant soon. You are an amazing writer and this is such a beautiful post. Sending all my love positive girl xxxxx

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    1. Hi Elisha! Thank-you so much, I will definitely check it out :) xoxo

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  4. Hi Stacie
    I'm a scientist and I believe in things I can prove and touch, my scientific bran says we are water, carbon with a few amino acids thrown in for good measure, and when the neurons stops firing its all over, BUT I think similarly to you and hope this life is not it. I've not helped bring a child into the world, I've done nothing amazing. I have tried to live my life the way my parents would have wanted me to, and have tried to be the best person I could have. From reading your blog regularly I know you have made an impact on the world (more than I've ever done) by highlighting the donor situation in the UK, and more importantly by being yourself and a credit to your family.
    I believe you will get your transplant as I think there is an equilibrium in life, a good friend of mine didn't get her transplant in time, therefore I believe you will.
    Hang in there :-)

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    1. Thank-you so much, it really means so much to me that you think that! Getting me all emotional reading this. I'm so sorry to hear about your friend when I get my transplant I will definitely try and live a really full life and hopefully do everyone proud :) xoxo

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  5. Hi Stacie,
    Have read your blog for sometime now. I don't know what happens when we die, but hope it is good. You have already made a difference to many in raising awareness in organ donation. I look forward to reading that you've had your op and are doing well. Am sure this will happen for you. Also for my partner John who has been on the lung transplant his at Harefield for 6 months. He has IPF

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    1. Thank-you Kath! That's one blog I am really looking forward to writing :) I hope John doesn;t have to wait much longer, I know how hard it can be, but I'm sure Harefield will look after him. xoxo

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  6. Hey Stacie, having just read your article in this months Cosmo I just wanted to say (like many) what a truly inspiring person you are. I have a 2 month old daughter who has been under the care of the Brompton and Harefield before she was even born and as a parent I hope she doesn't resent me for

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  7. Bringing her into this world knowing she will live a different life to many other children but seeing your bravery and positive attitudes is as encouraging for me as I'm hoping it will be for her :) we were also at the Cosmo blog awards and I wish id had the chance to meet you there! Keep up the good work gorgeous girl and I wish you all the best :)

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    1. Hi Amy! awww thank-you so much! I definitely a great believer in a positive attitude :D. Were you really?! There was so many people at that party, it would have been lovely to meet you though :). Was that in April's addition of coos? I haven't got mine yet, I will have to looking for one :)
      I hope your little girl is okay though? I have many friends who are treated at both the Brompton and Harefield and they are always saying how amazing they are so she's in good hands :D xoxo

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  8. I've been thinking of you - hoping like anything you'd got the call. I wish, hope more than anything it comes soon. Stay strong, and you've inspired me to do a little awareness for organ donation too.

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