23.6.14

End of an Era...

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The time has come, a time I never wanted to come but unfortunately it has.

As of this weekend I decided I was no longer fit enough to work
 
Friday evening I was having funny turns, arms going numb, body seemingly forgetting how to breath without constant reminder from me to do so. I had a rubbish nights sleep only seeming to drift off at 4am. When I woke up at 6 I felt no better and it took an hour and a half for me to decide what to do. It's not fair of me to expect work to keep my position open yet I only seem to be there about 1 week out of a month at the moment, it is not fair on them. 

As much as I have loved working there and as much as I wanted to carry on working till the day I got my transplant it just seems my body just doesn't agree with me. I have to keep telling myself that I'll still get to see my work chummies again and I would like to think they would take me back after my transplant till I figure out what I want to do with my life. It's just sad is all. I'll miss it and all of them.

I kind of knew it was going to happen for a while, I just didn't want to admit it you know? I think the guys at work have probably felt it too. Hey Ho things don't last forever and this is sadly one of those things.  

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  1. I'm sorry. It's a hard decision to make. I have a progressive condition, and I was lucky in some ways as I came to the end of a contract, and after a little break I realised what I was doing to myself by trying to continue. It would have been much longer if I'd actually had to make the decision and resign.

    It's the right decision, but it is hard - especially when you hear other people with different conditions saying, "I'm not giving up, I'll keep going at work" and it makes me feel like I failed, particularly at 26 - not being able to work.

    So again I'm sorry, but it's also nice to spend the small increase of energy on more enjoyable things, than trying to continue to work. x

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    1. It was really hard decision to make, one I probably should have made a while ago but I'm stubborn lol. I'm trying to look on the brighter side of it in that I won't be spending 2 days recovering from my shift and can better use that time. It is hard when you see others who managed to carry on working till they got their transplants it makes me feel like I've failed and I'm weak but I just have to remind myself everyone is different and it's just one of those things.

      xoxo Stacie

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