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Thursday was intense for so many reasons my 1st and 2nd false alarm were no where near as emotional or intense as that was on Thursday. All I can think about is what the donor family must be going through right now, what Hazel's family must be going through and what the 3 other families who were called that morning must be going through too.
I know me and my family WILL get through this because that's what we do and I have the MOST AMAZING support system behind me, but do they?
On Thursday I experienced something I have never experienced ever! I felt so unbelievably loved. The love and support pouring out from people was insane and although I couldn't see it all I could feel it and my sister was telling me the messages you guys were leaving me, and a bunch of you were texting me. Although I was extremely anxious when we thought it was going to go ahead I could just feel everyone willing me on to do well and to just get through this bit and then I would be on the road to my amazing future. I don't completely know how to explain it to you. When I got home that day I could see messages from people I don't even know on twitter and private messaging me on Facebook who had obviously seen what was happening through mutual friends and I just couldn't wrap my head around the fact that people I don't know wanted me to do well and were willing me on too. I'm probably being the most inarticulate person in the world right now...
I wrote a status that night as I got home just really apologising to every one for putting them through that day because it was a long day for me and I was there getting all the information so I couldn't imagine what it would have been like for everyone else waiting anxiously for any minute detail of information from my sister. I honestly don't like having to put people through that.
I don't know how to thank everyone for all the love, strength and support they gave me on Thursday besides doing this blogpost. This is like my massive hug to you all.
My family were amazing on Thursday, Megan and Mum kept me distracted from what we all thought was about to happen. Candice being a wonderful messenger ;-). Then Kath, Bernice and Gina for all the support throughout the day especially at the 11th hour Bernice and Kath's great advice definitely kept me calm. Then EVERYONE for the love and support I could feel throughout the whole day and got to fully appreciate when I could read all your lovely messages.
This journey sometimes feels like a lonely one but whenever I feel like that I just have to remember all of you who get me through this in the dark and lonely times and I know that I could never be alone, not with all of you behind me willing me on always. I know you could have given up on me long ago but the fact that you are all still here with me, means so very much and the only way I can say thank-you to guys is like this, and I know that is never going to be enough but for right now that is all that I can do. So I hope you all know that I appreciate and love you all for your continued love and support throughout all of this and I will never take it for granted, ever, I promise!