Small Victories...

The past few weeks I've been having "I'm depressed! Why haven't I got my transplant yet?! WHY?!" type moments not that I don't have those at least once a week but the past few weeks if you were in my brain all you would be hearing would be "Why?! Why?! Why?!" It's annoying but as I have come to learn in the 921 days of transplant list life it's pretty much what I have come to expect. The problem is when you're ill you think it so much more which is what I have been doing for the past few weeks of lung infection wonderfulness. 

Today however I went the GP and it looks like my lung infection is finally buggering off YAY! I am in all honesty feeling much better and seem to be able to get off of my oxygen for a decent amount of time, not sleeping as much and managing to keep a bra on for at least 3 hours. I think when you are in my kind of position it is all about the small victories that you have. So getting rid of this lung infection although not the biggest news in the world, does make my quality of life much better and means I am not stuck in my bed for 20 hours a day. It's a minor victory in the grand scheme of things but it makes a difference to me and my life so it's something I want to acknowledge. I still have an ear infection which is annoying but I can live with it and my heart is still being a bit off but these two are going to be the next things that get addressed.  

I think this is something I need to apply more to my life and not get so down about things that are beyond my control, just try and take small steps which lead to the small victories which will hopefully lead to the ultimate victory (transplant). I know it's super hard to do that sometimes and there are some weeks when I just don't think I can do it anymore but I do need to remember that the small victories aren't insignificant and they will eventually lead to something major. I tend to take those depressing Stacie moments and write blogposts but you guys should honestly see some of the blog post drafts I have written in the past and waited to post them, then re-read them with a clear mind and ended up deleting them because they are so depressing. I probably should have kept them to read them post transplant to see how far I will have hopefully come that would have been interesting, hindsight hey?

Anyway guys I hope you guys can apply this to your lives and remember the small things aren't insignificant and you should celebrate each one :) 

As always, thank-you for reading guys and chat soon 

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