You know me and my sister when she used to live at home and we shared a room would used to have the most in depth conversations about the places we read about in books, the magical far off lands that those books took us too and we wished with all of our hearts that they were real. (She's gonna kill me after she reads this LOL)
I don't have a belief system at all, if god exists, I hate him, I often wonder whether reincarnation exists, that sometimes crosses my mind but something I always wonder about is if I don't have a belief system what does that mean for me when I die? I don't want to believe that there's nothing after this, our lives are far to limited and short for this to be it, even those that make it to grand old ages of 100. If you think about it 100 years is nothing the universe and the world has been around for millions and billions of years, 100 years in the face of all that time is like a spec of dust. How does a small spec of dust make an impact on the universe, on the world, on time?
I know thats a big question and one nobody is likely to ever answer. Although thinking about it maybe Hitler achieved that impact. Attemptive Genocide will do that for someone.
So when we were younger (I say younger like I don't still want it to happen, but I do so much!) Megan and I would discuss our books and a particular one being Harry Potter and one of our favourite programmes being Charmed and I remember quite vividly a conversation we had about how if we were to die we hoped we got to choose where we got to go whether fictional or real life. Then the conversation started to go off onto a tangent about what if I chose a certain place (because obviously I'm going first) and Meg chose a different place we needed to choose the same place to be together. I think we decided on Harry Potter in the end because obviously we wanted to go to Hogwarts and learn magic and all that stuff. We did have the conversation about the fact that Voldemort would be there but we came to the conclusion that no matter where we picked there would always be a bad person, or situation and the fact that magic would exist and all that cool stuff outweighed the whole Voldemort issue.
I know it sounds ridiculous and childish, but the more books I read as I get older and the far off places I get to visit when I read those books it just makes me really not want to believe that this is it, this can't be all there is. I haven't made the impact I want to make on the world, I haven't had enough time to make any sort of an impact. So I suppose I'm sort of hoping this can't be it and at least if I do die I can pick some other reality, fantasy land where I can continue to try and make an impact.
Chat soon guys