Last year I went into the 2014 thinking "This is the year!" it was going to be the year that I either got my transplant or didn't. I thought that 2014 was either going to break me or make me. It did neither. I am so happy that it didn't break me and that we had no major mishaps through the year we only had one major hospital admission and I managed to go from June through the rest of the year with no admissions to A&E which was a major achievement in my eyes.
I'm going to be completely honest with you guys though and I'm going to say I did really think that I was going to be going into 2015 with my new heart and lungs. There's no reason for me to lie to you I hand on heart thought 2014 was going to be my year, I'm writing this on the 28th of December though so I suppose I technically have 3 days left in which it could happen but my luck being what it is I'm going to say 2014 wasn't my year apparently.
I'm so happy I've made it through though because at the end of last year I wasn't sure whether that was going to happen. When you're waiting it's so hard and it's a mind game most of the time, you're trying to guess whether what you're feeling is a normal bad feeling or whether a sinister one which means bad things to come and whether it will lead to worse things. This year I finally got to the point where 24/7 oxygen became a necessary part of my life, I really never thought I would get to that point. I tried to go without my oxygen for a few hours on Boxing day and the pain I was in afterwards just wasn't worth the few hours off of it.
We did have a false alarm this year though which was a positive sign even if the end result was terrible, I try to look back on false alarms positively because I never want to view them negatively. A family did say yes to donating their loved ones organs and that is always an amazing gift even if some of their organs were not viable I like to hope that the rest of them were viable and hopefully helped others.
I don't know how this year will go I have absolutely nothing planned for this year, apart from my annual Vampire Diaries convention, because I really thought that I would be on my road to recovery by now and planning things along the way. I do have a Pantomime to go to on the 5th which I'm excited for but that's it as far as plans go. I do have a new niece/nephew due in March so that's exciting (especially after what happened last year) I'm sure they will take up a lot of my time although at the moment Jaydon (my oldest nephew) is determined it is going to be a boy because he wants a brother and not a sister, boy will he be disappointed if it turns out to be a girl LOL. I'm secretly hoping for a girl just for the buying prospects but I'm happy so long as it comes out healthy, whatever it decides to be.
This year I won't be making any resolutions unless you count me paying off my Credit Card in the first few months of this year? Thats definitely happening but I don't think you could call that a resolution, more like my plan to not be in debt to a bank LOL. Credit Cards are bad kids! ;-)
Do you guys have anything exciting planned for this year? Any resolutions you're determined to stick too?