The past few weeks I've been having a reoccurring dream about the most random thing. I keep dreaming about losing a DT folder (Design Technology) I had when I was 13 years old until I was 16. Is that not the most random thing to dream about? Why my old DT folder? I honestly cannot think why I would dream about it, there was nothing special about it that I can recall, I can remember it being a pain in the arse to carry it around and I think I did lose it a few times during that period, it's just a really random thing to dream about, is it not?
Maybe it's not the actual folder it's representing but the subject from the age of 13? My DT subjects were food technology and Textiles both I really enjoyed, I loved cooking and was amazing at the coursework side of it but I had to give it up when it was time for GCSE's because I just kept giving myself really bad burns even if I was wearing oven mitts or anything of that kind I would still burn myself I'm pretty sure I burned through to my muscle at some point it was painful and I still have the scars. Then I moved onto Textiles which I enjoyed just as much I was better at the practical side of it though more than the coursework side of it but I really enjoyed it I actually got a B for my GCSE which I think only happened because it didn't feel like work at all, I remember during the exam it was raining really heavily and we were obviously in a massive hall and so it just echoed through it and throughout the exam, I think it actually helped relax me, I was really chilled out in that exam it was one of those exams you come out knowing you did okay. I don't know why I would dream about the folder though?
Someone sent me a link to a dream interpreting website which suggests that the losing aspect is what may be the important part:
"A lost opportunity; forgetting something which is important. Depending on dream might also suggest actual, or feelings about, loss of health; losing a lover-partner, or whatever the lost thing depicts. If one dreams often about losing things, like handbag, car, children, it could show that the dreamer is deeply uncertain about themselves. In other words they are feeling a loss of identity, wondering where they are going in life, who they are in the present situation, or what value they have. Often such feelings often come about from losing contact with your deep feelings and passions. Without them we may feel we have no rudder, no place to ear for.
A dream of loss might also indicate being frightened of losing the control they thought they had over their life and the world. Such dreams are often about meeting some massive apparent threat such as a huge wave or creature. The dreams sometimes have great fear in them.
Dreams about loss can arise through anxiety about losing friendship, or of illness creating loss. It can also suggest that you feel unloved and unwanted. These hells and heavens we each carry within us in the form of fears such as losing the person we love are sometimes habitual attitudes such as that of feeling our partner is out to trick us; chips on our shoulder such as conflict with the society we live in or the authority figures we confront, and genuine childhood or birth traumas.
Many people have a real fear of losing their identity. People relate to this threat in two major ways. They either fight to keep control, and employ all manner of techniques such as keeping their attention focused outwardly by such things as talking, walking about, drawing, holding their breath or dancing - or they surrender to what is being experienced. To meet the parts of ones nature that has previously been pushed into the unconsciousness, one needs to surrender in some degree. Of the person fights the loss of control as the new material from within is emerging, it sometimes feels as if they are disintegrating. Their body may feel as if it is changing or dying, and they are losing themselves. Such struggles arise out of fear of losing oneself or at least losing the sense of oneself connected with appearance, work success or financial standing - the loss of identity."
I don't know. A lot of that ^^^ makes sense but it just seems like the most random thing to dream about why my DT folder? I feel like all of that up there is a lot to place on a DT folder that I had from the ages of 13 to 16, it didn't play a massive role in my life it was just a A3 sized folder with a handle that carried my DT coursework, of a class I admittedly liked, in it and was a massive pain in the arse to carry around and I'm pretty sure I nearly lost it about a thousand times during those 3 years. Obviously there was a bit more to the dream after losing the "the folder" I would continue to dream about missing my bus to get home (which btw catching our school bus was always a anxiety inducing affair for me back in the day and I always dreaded it) and then in the dream I would have to make my way to the public bus and that is filled with obstacles like sand dunes some of which are carved into pretty patterns and snow drifts some of which are also carved into pretty patterns anyway I get to the bus stop and I wake up or at least that's as much as I can remember of the dream.
Its been the same every time I've had it though it just seems like a really odd thing to dream about especially for someone who very rarely remembers what she dreams about.
What do you guys think?
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