When the little things start to disappear...

I'm not some-one who asks for a lot in life I'm happy to watch a move in bed rather than go out on the town. I'm happy with the few close friends I have, I don't need the best of everything, I enjoy sitting curled up on the sofa in a blanket with a cup of tea although that is now decaf but one of the few things I do enjoy and have enjoyed for many years now is relaxing in a nice hot bubble bath. I can sit in a bath for about an hour to 90 mins just listening to music or reading a book and wouldn't even notice that the time had passed. 

Lately and unfortunately one of my "little things" is being prised from my fingertips. The past 3 or 4 months having a bath has just gotten so unbelievably hard. I'm not even sure why. I'll get in the bath and then after 10-15minutes I have severe back and chest pain kind of like I used to get when I "attempted swimming" in my pre-pulmonary hypertension days. I'll have my oxygen on, my line won't be in the water and I just cannot physically stay in the bath for any longer, I get out of the bath knackered and in pain and it takes me about 30 minutes to recover from it. 

Its not like its the end of the world or anything I can still shower but I really do love a good bath it's one of my 'little things' that I have been grasping onto for the past 3 years and it is just slipping through my fingers if anything its like trying to hold onto water, inevitably it will slip through your fingers and there's nothing you can do to stop it. Hopefully its not something I will have to do without for long, it's just disappointing and one thing I really thought I was going to be able to keep hold of.  

As always, thank-you for reading guys and chat soon

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